Chapter 22 - Miss.Body-clock has been doing many things

My body-clock has really gone haywire - I'm sleeping through the day till evening and am wide awake throughout the night till early morning. WHAT IS THIS?! I mean...Yeah I know it's the holidays but I want to improve(and relax) during the holidays not.....go *Gong gong* You know?

Okay, shall find some way to re-wire my body-clock. Hmmm..About 2 weeks have past and I'm only left with another 2 weeks to enjoy my holidays and really, I have done nothing productive ; No improvements on thiings I need to improve on or done homework or study or anything like that...Not even going on outings blah. Mannn, this kinda holidays.....

Am REALLY jealous;envious of friends overseas right now having the time of their lives to be specific CHRISTINA! She's in Korea now being suffocated with KPOP and Korean Culture and I'm here...............doing nothing, rotting away with no life. Mm....

Next week from Tuesday till Thursday I'll be going for a leadership camp in school representing Modern Dance with Jiaxing and a Sec 2 Junior which I think is Maanpreet? As much as I know myself, I.DON'T.LEAD. Not that I'm lazy to blah but I don't have that...Leader vibe...I just talk a lot..on the net....Talkative on the net...Have a lot of things to say..But not the "Let's go people!" kinda person. And I think some of my juniors don't wish for me to be the 'Future president of Modern Dance' cause I scolded them once before for not being serious enough during our SYF practices. So Mm! You see? You see? Listed out SOME of my reasons why I shouldn't(!) be a leader. Let's list out somemore: I have BAD time management that can piss people off, I play before homework and sleep like a pig and don't do homework, I'm not a good speaker and go ERM ERR YEA MM SO YUP because it's awkward and I don't open up to people who aren't close to me. Okay, all those qualities are not one of a leader right? But still, my Teachers-in-charge still thought about choosing me for this camp because...I think during our SYF days this year I typed A LOT on the Modern Dance FB page *Whoops* And I got lectured by my Teacher-in-charge for passing up my Camp form late and not calling her due to some mis-communication and she told me "I do not expect this from you arh. Ask you to call me also never call" then I told her, "I did! But the call got rejected and Jiaxing sent me my own phone number I think she didn't send to you.." She: She is so blur! Me: *In my mind* That's how Modern Dance seniors are I guess whoopssss.... Then I got lectured for my painted nails too and that day everyone who talked to me said at least one thing about my nails...Mannn, I just painted them for fun and not for "beautifying" was planning to erase them off as usual after I put them on anyway...*Sigh* Okay, I typed too much again right? Whatever, I hope that this camp will be filled with fun and will be memorable and have some impact in my life to do better since it's a leadership camp. I just hope to not go through all those typical camp stuff like learning teamwork or other stuff that has been repeated again and again cause then...It won't be anything new and fresh you know..But since I'm not a planner or organizer can't say much but yup, hope I'll still be able to learn from this camp. Mm.

Anyway, I spent most of my time on the net going on Twitter, Facebook and Youtube trying to find something exciting to excite me yupyup and managed to find this super awesome choreography of 'On the floor by Jennifer Lopez" JJANG!

See this video!


Love the whole dance and their so in sync!

And and,

I've posted this on twitter already but I shall just post it again here...

My laughing style is still the same! I know their obviously the same since I'm comparing myself with..myself but it's just amusing to see my past picture similar to now.

So I shall stop here for today BYEBYE

Chapter 21 - Back and updated

Poop, haven't updated this place like....for quite long right? It's been about two weeks since I came back from Cambodia and to summarize it, it was memorable (Okay, I said that on twitter too...) but it's the truth anyway.  Would've babbled about the trip there but since the school asked us for a reflection on that already and I typed real long for that, I'm lazy to re-type another one here but I ain't lazy to blog now when it's 6 in the morning and I haven't slept since yesterday because this girl with a body-clock that has gone a bit haywire woke up in the late afternoon going evening - well, at least that wasn't the worst time I've woken up...Anyway, to just state one thing out, I PERFORMED IN A FOREIGN COUNTRY WHOOHOO! Ok, it may seem like 'mehhh..' to some of you but it's an incredible thing for me to experience and the children,kids,teens(audience) there who saw me and my friends perform cheered really loudly, as in, REALLY(!) loudly such that I think their screams can be competent with fangirls(or boys) kinda screaming O.M.G it was shocking yet was so happy to experience that brief moment before it started raining quite heavily and everyone ran for shelter. Give thanks to God for being able to experience that life of a performer *<3*


So mm, I guess I shall not type that much and just upload some photos from the trip! Ps most of the photos I saved from the trip had me in it cause......I'm inside? In other words I saved those which got caught by camera and didn't save those I weren't in at all. Also, ain't a picture-taking person so didn't use my phone's camera or bring a digital camera at all and went to 'steal' pieces of photos from my classmates so I can keep those memories for myself so CLASSMATES, I shall take some of your photos ok? OK! *Permission asked*

P.s Pictures not in chronological order so kinda messy here and there whoops!

First dinner in Siem Reap, Cambodiaaa!

Jiax & the lil' girl I interacted with for the past 3 days we visited the school! (She wasn't there on the 1st day we went =(  )

Tried asking for her name before but had a language barrier =(

Waiting to go out for dinner

At our second dinner of the trip

In the aireplane on the way back to Singapore, Camwhoringgg *Ugly faces*

The Grade 6 class we taught on our last visit there..Wasn't able to interact with them because was informed of the farewell performance we(dancers) had to put up for the school only hours before the actual performance so had to rush-practice T_T

Nicole, Jiax & I have different back profiles ;) Ok, lame-o

Weijie and this 16 year old guy became best friends during the trip yooo..Posted this one despite my face not being inside because that guy's eyes plus smile resembles a bit of Taemin so this is for SHINee fans heheh! Maybe not in this picture but in real life he has that smiley eyes and bright smile kinda thing like Taemin's

Walking around in a tourist attraction, it's a temple called Angkor ______(forgot)...Sweated (Perspired)  lika pig!

After dinner we went to the mall for some mini-shopping ^_^V *Fav pic of us 4 currently btw hehe*

2 guys on the left in a photoshoot, I'm awkward being so short, Jiaxing pops out from behind and I didn't know & Jocelyn whom successfully destroys the boys' 'cool' photoshoot with a 'peace'!^_^V

Look at my interest in taking a picture with Pedro. Yup, it's *thumbs up*! And after that they zoomed in on my face T_T

Great, this is a STALKER picture! Didn't even know a camera was taking us while being all candid

Bob hair! Heheh, looks like I'm holding onto headphones but was actually switching from my sunglasses to my glasses

Oo! My current twitter picture heheh! And our class photographer is in it too!<<<

Yay, glad Nicole pop-ed into this picture cause look at my face for being dragged into a picture alone with them two

Now I'm happy cause it's with the girls! (And 1 guy but NVM!)

With Jiaxing in the bus after a day at school!

With Group A3 (Members missing: Jocelyn, Jiajie & Yiyan) and Mr Ng at lunch

Group A3! (Members missing: Jiajie&Weijie)

Climbing the steep staircase...The original stairs built under this staircase that we were climbing were much more steeper and didn't even have enough space for one feet for each step!  Wondered how people in the olden days had to climb them with ease...

They probably didn't know I wanted to pose too T_T But that face I made wasn't intentional ok! Just happened

See! Stalker!

Tadaaa, our performace..Still haven't seen a video of our performance but I heard some people did take a video..I wanna watch! Left to right: Me, Joce, Jiax -Evidence I turned too early when their still facing the front-

With Syah and Pedro

DONE

Chapter 20 - The soothing touch of Ease

Joey Sunbae-nim & I ; Look at our Racoon-boxed-in-the eye make-up for SYF O__O

Christina,Joey&I after washing up after SYF: Ahh~ So much better without make-up!

Yo, SYF is finally over, and I can concentrate more on my studies now. That's the good thing. But the sad thing is the missing of going for practice countless times in a week. However, now that SYF is over, we will have new things coming in and I really wonder what are those "things"~ Not confirmed yet so..Mm..

Anyway, we got a Bronze for SYF and I am actually half-happy about the award. Before saying anything more, I shall state that the judges this year raised the level/standard of skill&technique because some schools did really(!) well this year and thus, we got a Bronze. In SYF, I was told the judges will compare every single school with each other and see where the standard is at. Apparently, I think there were some schools who did many stunts, flying here and there and definitely had the technique and skill thus the standards were raised.

When I first heard we got Bronze, I knew I would expect that yet I still thought we could get at least a Silver. Yet I heard that schools that had danced WOW-ingly on the day we performed also, got a Bronze. They really "Wow"ed us yet they got the same award as us, same standard in the judges' eyes. I guess their not looking for Hiphop dancing...

But for us, we didn't do Hiphop, we did some weird kind of dance that I don't think I can call it Contemporary. It was just - weird. A weird dance of the future, we're zombie robots that dominate the future;That kind of weird. Heard that the judges gave comments about our dance too. They said our foot work from one place to another was quite messy and our choreography was very repeated. About the foot work, I admit that it's cause we didn't pay much attention to that when we were in practice.

But about choreography being repeated, that is to be told to whom? The instructor, the person who choreographed the dance, the person who rushed to finish our dance. In the beginning of the year, she made our steps very...Not moving, just walk here and there, and said that was her style so we should follow too. My Teacher-in-charge, Mdm Law, did not approve of such kind of dance thus she asked her to change the steps to more bigger actions, "flying" actions. So yeah, she did change the actions to more "flying". And that "flying" action, was repeated 3 times in our whole choreography, and it took up about 2/5 of our whole choreography, the too-much-repeated steps comment from the judges, was that "flying" action.

What about the other 3/5? It was basically consisted of re-used steps we used for our Sec 1 Orientation performance and the move-here-and-there steps that Mdm Law DIDN'T want. Can you see that the instructor did not put her heart into helping us choreograph a nice dance? I knew we could do much better with a better choreography. And what made me upset is, she choreographed for another school taking SYF this year too, and she said she hoped that school can get a Gold. Then what about us? If she wants to dedicate herself to one school, why put a half-hearted instructing in our school? Maybe, that school had better foundation and technique in dancing, thus it was easier to teach them more steps. But as an instructor, it is also her job to let us learn the techniques, she did for the first time she came in, but gave up on us just like that, after seeing that we can't do it properly. If she taught us and pushed us more, I bet we could've mastered those skills.

The seniors(Sec 4s&3s) WANTED to feel pain during warm-ups, training on splits, trying to do some stunts and other things like that. But our warm-ups were easy things that can help us in balance and stuff(That is important) but she didn't emphasize anything on real stretching.

But there's still one more reason that the judges gave us a Bronze despite such a simple(!) choreography - We had the Energy(Aura). On that day itself, we really let it all out, after performing I could still feel myself having the after-effect, wobbling;shaking from putting so much energy, and even feeling the energy put by others. Maybe that's the reason we got a Bronze, we didn't have enough technique, but the energy was there. I believe that if we had a better choreography, plus the 3 months of time to train, we could've gotten a Silver, or a bonus of Gold.

To summarize, I do like my instructor as a person, we laughed with her while having normal conversations, but when it comes to her choreographing, I wish we could just change to a BETTER instructor. But I know it's not up to our choice to choose who we want to be taught by but without doing anything, we can't make the dance better right? I'm glad yet sad that SYF is over, the journey was really tiring, stressing yet enjoyable.

I know there's no use of regretting, I don't regret at all. And there's no use of complaining, but I am just saying what I feel, opinions you know. And what I've said, it is a fact AND an opinion. So I'm just saying~

I will always dedicate myself to Modern Dance and can't wait to perform as Modern Dance for future performances, am also planning to go back after I graduate to help Modern Dance out to get our Gold! I know that Modern Dance will always continue to improve, there's no limit~

Thank you Lord, Our God.

I didn't type too much did I?

Extra

Hehe, Kindergarten Graduation dance~ Can't believe I could do a dance routine then since I'm like a slow-thinking girl then....

Younger sister&I: Ee~ I sat so straight last time, *Literally trying to sit up straight while typing this now*

That's our past Miniature Schnauzer, Rain Rain (After the weather, nope I didn't name that..) Had to give him away cause he had ticks ='( 

Chapter 19 - Brightening of the fading screen

Was holding Jiaxing's poms poms to cheer for my class during this year's school's Sports day! See~ I told your I'll be a good cheerleader for the class and not some !@*#(@&#^ athletic doing games for you(I skipped the games and went to cheer but we still got 1st for everything besides the running cause we ran leisurely~) Solo picture!

How long has it been since I blogged? More than a month! Well, my computer officially broke down thus I couldn't blog and now I'm using my younger sister's computer with my own account to blog and use computer stuff Mm. There isn't much to blog about especially after leaving this place for very long.

SYF is coming VERY soon, 3 more days! Monday is the last day of our practice and I'll make sure every single one comes into one and that we can get our desired award. It is kind of hard but we have to try to our very best right? Will always pray to God<3

Oh yeah, I feel kind of troubled yet relieved. These days girls are falling for so many different handsome/cute guys in school. And I agree with them too but it's like I don't have any feelings for them at all. It's like "Mm, yea their really really good-looking," but my heart is like some dead corpse couch potato that doesn't beat at all and my mind is like "O____O..." Just like that heheh~ That's the troubled part...BUT

The relieving part is that, at least I'm not falling for someone that is just for looks right? At least what my eyes sees doesn't deceive my heart right? And~ at least I know that I can wait for the right person for my heart to flutter like a butterfly or whatever feeling people get when their really really in love. I can't even feel any flutter in my heart when I see an eye candy! That's why I think my heart is like some couch potato now~ yet my eyes are blasting like loud music at every nice thing I see.

And last but not least, at least I know God is saving the right one for me<3

Have been praying a lot for many different things, but I know God hears all my prayers, even small little thoughts that even I am not aware of, and I know that he will work all of it out for me throughout my life such that I will never have regrets to live with. My faith just grows stronger and deeper with him. 

Chapter 18 - Remembered Past of that Young One

 Was looking through one of my family's photo album and decided to take picture of some of my childhood pictures. Most of the pictures was when I was somewhere in Australia staying at a Farm! Looking at it now, I really love that Farm environment ; Maybe not all that smelly poop and stuff but the greenery *smiles* Australia is the only country/state/city that I have really gone overseas to. So special memories are from there! So yeah, shall just update my blog with these pictures~!

Would die to ride a horse now but can't believe I rode it long before, and that time, since I was still very young, riding a horse was like going to playground = Nothing special. But now it's V-E-R-Y special to go horse riding! *faints*

Candid! Was halfway coming down those "big" steps which may be counted as "small" steps to me now~

At one of Gold Coast's beach! The sand was really soft! And that's not my childhood lover beside me hor, that's my eldest brother!

That's my younger sister on the left and me on the right! But this ain't in Australia haha, just a random photo. My eyes were big-er last time compared to now, I think it's really due to that I started to wear spectacles for more than half of my life already T_T And look at my sister's rosy cheecks! *Squishes*

And now~ Haha, this is a random shot too *Squishes cheeks too haha* *Gets slapped*

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