Chapter 16 - I Can Be

Taken after CCA Rectuitment with our make-up unwashed yet! Really didn't know Shanbin was peeking through the space!

Wow, looks like I finally updated! I got bored of seeing the same post for the past few days/weeks on my blog. School has been alright, I slowly coping with the difference of lower sec & upper sec life and though I find it frustrating when I don't understand (who doesn't?), I'll still work harder so I can do well!

I really love Literature, I have a really good, strong based Literature&English teacher, Ms Chia, who is Snoopy-obsessed! Haha! Before learning Literature&English from her, I didn't realize there were so much details that could be dug out in just one simple line where an ordinary person would find normal and plain. Through her lessons, I really learn a lot! And today after Lit lesson, we had a mini conversation which made me quite happy:

Ms Chia: Jiaxing you must be very good in Maths right?Jiaxing: NO! I hate Maths!
Ms Chia: You look like those who are good in Maths
Jocelyn&Nicole talking at once: She's good in Maths, She passed the diagnostic test! I only got 8....I LOVE MATHS!
Me: .....I LOVE LITERATURE! *Spreads out my hands*
-Awkward silence-
Ms Chia: Yea, I can see your the Literature type
Also, I really like my class and the teachers(90% of them)! 3E5 is like a class of quietness, rowdiness, calmness(?)...Like, all in one! And guess what? We're the only class in Sec 3 Express to have so many different Combinations - Some take Geog, Some take Hist, Some take Lit, Some take POA, Some take Phy and Some take Bio. Although we have to keep changing classes for subjects, it still doesn't feel so.....messy you know?

Talking to my other classmates besides Nicole,Jocelyn,Jiasiang&Jiaxing is still kind of awkward and weird and...awkward BUT I'm trying my best to like..communicate with them a bit~ They must think I'm really quiet&shy and that's not my first time hearing that as a first impression of me but I'm really not that kind inside alright~! Just with new people I am T_T

Another thing to blog about is about Modern Dance again, though working hard for our CCA Recruitment, we didn't receive a good response from the audience (Not the Sec 1s but those who were watching). They gave comments that were hurting like boring, don't understand, we're going to close down etc. And I had to put up a fake smile the whole time while asking Sec 1s to join our CCA. Even walking around the hall was hard cause it made me feel like people gave glances at Modern Dancers that we're lousy. I don't mind that they don't understand our dance and stuff but why say that we're going to close down if they don't know what's happening inside our CCA? Why create such rumors that our attitude isn't good and stuff when you don't know how we are like?
Maybe you guys have that impression of us because of our seniors last time, which I still have no idea what happened last time as my batch and the juniors weren't part of the school that time. However what our seniors did, is not how we are now, and nobody would want people to look bad at them. You know it's hurtful seeing people like other performances but when it comes to ours, it's just "messy"? I know that our skills aren't those of clear-cut,distinct,powerful and in sync YET(!) but we still work hard to improve, step by step. That's why I really want to work hard for Modern Dance, not only me but others too, to bring back Modern Dance's pride. I want to get a Gold for SYF, We MUST get a Gold, at LEAST a Gold. Now my only thought is.........Is our dance routine, good enough to qualify for a Gold? Or is it just a motioned dance that our instructor likes with no thought of helping us achieve a Gold? That's what's worrying me. I enjoy dancing to it because it's fun. But what about the criteria for Gold? Is that routine good enough? I'm a minor at all these but it's just that sense of being unsure if it's good enough you know. And it's rude&disrespectful to tell an instructor, helping us to choreograph & questioning her if what she choreograph is good enough. It's like downgrading to her.
What I know now is that we, Modern Dance, will really work hard, to bring pride to our CCA, and not only for just a while but continue to improve, even if that improvement is just a small bit. I know talk is cheap, and I can really do nothing else but say this and work hard myself, but I hope/am sure the others want that too.

Heard that we managed to recruit 15 new juniors for our CCA, some which are guys, I'm quite sure some will quit after seeing the dance routine our dance instructor choreograph because they'll think the dance is weird and maybe even some guys will quit because they thought in Modern Dance, you get to learn BBOY-ing, but we don't learn that here, the BBOYs do BBOY-ing themselves, unless they won't mind teaching the guy juniors.

To end off, I found this song called 'I Can Be' by Taio Cruz and here is the lyrics which kind of relates to hardships and in our case, Modern Dance:

Now I feel that this hold of mine has taken many forms
Still sometimes the rain can turn into a waterfall
The prettiest things can come out of the coldest mind, yeah
And even with broken wings, sometimes you find your way to fly

It's time to be bigger bigger, stronger stronger, harder harder
It's time to be bigger bigger, stronger stronger, harder harder
It's time to be

Now I feel that this soul of mine has had its many tolls, yeah
Still sometimes the pain is what we need for us to grow, yeah
So when it's time for me to look into my deepest side
I will, I will find a way to hold onto the love inside

It's time to be bigger bigger, stronger stronger, harder harder
Yes, I can be bigger bigger, stronger stronger, harder harder
Yes, I can be bigger bigger, stronger stronger, harder harder
Yes, I can be bigger bigger, stronger stronger, harder harder
Yes, I can be

See I can be anything I want to be
All I have to do is put my mind to it and I can do it
So what I want you to do is put your fist to the sky and say it with me:

I can be bigger bigger, stronger stronger, harder harder
Yes, I can be bigger bigger, stronger stronger, harder harder
Yes, I can be bigger bigger, stronger stronger, harder harder
Yes, I can be bigger bigger, stronger stronger, harder harder
Yes, I can be
END GEUD!

Chapter 15 - This is Love

Just thought the lyrics has meaning..



This is Love Lyrics

It's in the eyes of the children
As they leave for the very first time
And it's in the heart of the soldier
As he takes a bullet on the front line
It's in the face of a mother
As she takes the force of a blow
And its in the hands of the father yeah
As he works his fingers to the bone yeah

I'm standing under a white flag oh
Can you see me oh, can you see me oh
I'm standing for everything we have oh
Can you hear me oh, can you hear me

This is why we do it this is worth the pain
This is why we bow down and get back up again
This is where the heart lies, this is from above
Love is this, this is love

Love is why we do it love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down, get back up again
Love is where the heart lies love is from above
Love is this, this is love

This is love (x3)

It's in the soul of a city
What it does after it crumbles and burns
And it's in the blood of a hero
To know where he goes he may never return yeah

I'm standing under a white flag oh
Can you see me oh, can you see me oooh
I'm standing for everything we have oh
Can you hear me oh, can you hear me

This is why we do it this is worth the pain
This is why we bow down, get back up again
This is where the heart lies this is from above
Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down, get back up again
Love is where the heart lies love is from above
Love is this, this is love

This is love, this is love ..

Bridge (rap)
If you could be anywhere that you wanted to be
With anyone that you wanted to be with
Do anything that you wanted to do
What would it be and who would it be with you
Time flies but you're the pilot
It moves real fast but you're the driver
You may crash and burn sometimes

This is why we do it this is worth the pain
This is where we bow down get back up again
This is where the heart lies this is from above
Love is this, this is love
Love is why we do it, love is worth the pain
Love is why we fall down get back up again
Love is where the heart lies love is from above
Love is this, this is love

Chapter 14 - The resuming of using my brain

Rain gave me a surprise by visiting my house, glad it ain't happening again..I think

Yesterday was the first day of schooling and eventhough it wasn't my first time in that school and my friends are all studying there too, I had that feeling of nervousness where my mind kept thinking, "Oh my gosh, what will happen? What will happen?"

I think it was due to that we were all separated into different classes and I know that I have some friends in the same class as me but because I don't really belong to their "clique" I kinda felt nervous if I'll be very extra there. But yeah,  everything's okay and my new class doesn't seem to be that bad. I mean, we haven't turn out to be super noisy yet since it's just the first day but some things to list out of my class:

-One known-to-be-fierce-but-still-good Form teacher
-One soft-spoken Co-form teacher
-A Sec 3 retainer (It's alright to fail, but we gotta get back up on our feet! FIGHTING TO HIM!)
-About 26 girls and 14 boys
-A girl that really likes church (Y)
-And erm, that's what I know most about my class for now >O<;;

Well, I don't really know how I'm going to befriend my other classmates besides those that I already know cause it's kinda...Awkward~ plus my outer appearance seems very quiet and shy so yeah, Aigoo~

First day of school was of course full of talk and stuff but I didn't really listen much..Not that I don't wish to listen but my mind keeps going to dreamland what can I do? Main things were talking about class committee, decorations, seating arrangements(Hope I can get along well with my desk partner which I don't really know who it'll be) and other stuff which I kinda spaced out on..And truthfully, I really dont know what I'll be doing tomorrow and I think I'll just be going with the flow.

And on thursday, there's going to be a diagnostic test which I don't really plan to do very well neither do very badly because the test is only for the school's preference and not counted in our results. I think I'll just write down whatever I remember and if I don't, then oh gosh, I'll revise it next time.

I sound like a lazy bum now but I'm still someone who will strive hard to achieve results I wont be disappointed in alright~


And I also hope that this year and the future it will be good for Modern Dance and that we will continuously improve in terms of passion & skill. I hope that this friday's CCA recruitment with the Sec 1s will turn out good and that the people who join are serious in the CCA and not just join, think they can't and then quit. The costumes, banner, notice board - Truthfully I'm not that satisfied not because of others not working hard(they did) but because I feel like I can't do better...So I shall try to be better next time for the sake od Modern Dance. Fighting!


And I would really like to thank Fishy&Jiaen for the wonderful gifts;souveniers <3 Fishy gave me an Effiel Tower Keychain that I've always wanted and I don't wish to take them from someone else but have it meant for me and also a really cute folk wooden shoe keychain which I've already attached it to my school bag~


And thanks to Jiaen for giving me such a beautiful something(I don't really know what to call it) that can be hung on my door and it's filled with seashells! You know my taste neh ;) It's also a pencil but I doubt I'll be using such a heavy, hard to write with the seashells to write on a regular basis>O<;; And it's more of a decoration so yeah^_^ And also thanks for the really nice necklace, the design inside the pendant(?) is really beautiful and I guess I shall wear it next time when I go outdoors to play




Ok, finish talking about school and I doubt I'll talk much about school because school is always the same and only when something interesting happens then I shall blog about it again..Geukbam(Goodnight)!


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Updated: Ok so I found out that it was going to be part of my CA(15%) and it takes up 3% of it I think...Gosh, going to study for it now

Chapter 13 - The new URL explanation

2011's New Year Sleep over at Jo-oh's house! No more drinking alcohol! I'm sure I drank a total of only 1/4 of a normal glass and I really cannot stand the feeling, taste & smell~ Head throbbing~... ...Left to Right: Lili, Josephine, Me, Suiching

The reason why I changed my URL link from fresh-naturalways to soundoftheice-cream was because Suiching kept pronouncing out my blog link like this, "FRESH~! NATURAL~! ALLL~WAYS~~~!" It sounds so weird and irritating to the ear and I looked at my URL and thought it's weird too so I decided to change it in the middle of the morning, like...4-5am?

Couldn't think of any nice names at all and soundoftheice-cream struck my head like this:

Kept asking a lame question to them, "When do you hear my name the most? (My name is Yanling but they call me ling)"
Lili: -Don't know-
Josephine: The ice cream man? [The one that sells $1 ice-cream at the side of the streets and always have their "A-ling-a-ling-a-ling-a-ling" bells]
Me: CORRECT!

Went a bit crazy with the bell sound made by the ice-cream man so I actually decided to name it -

hearthebellfromtheice-creamman <- TOO LONG & not nice~ T_T

So thought for a lil' while longer and decided to name my URL Soundoftheice-cream which can have lots of meaning if you try to like look deeper into the words...There's no specific meaning but it can be defined in many ways...

So yeah, that's my lame post on why I decided to change to this URL and I hope Suiching doesn't come to me and say, "SOUND~! OF THE~ AHH-EE-SEU CREAM~"

Chapter 12 - The piano & The violin

It just came up to mind again that I want to learn piano & violin. Reason is because I like these two instruments a lot. I used to learn both of them when I was young, I think for piano from K2-Pri 3(?) and for violin I think Pri 1-Pri 3..Yea, I stopped both of them on the same year. It was because then, I wasn't that much interested in instruments because it always made me sleep, I could sleep halfway playing them! Feel really guilty for not appreciating those two instruments earlier. 

I had piano lessons at home because my other siblings had them too, we didn't have any exams so yeah, it was just for playing and I stopped before even reaching Grade 1 because I hated all the theory and stuff and just wanted to play all the nice songs I liked - naive right?

For violin, I joined it as my CCA in my Primary school because then, I didn't know what a CCA was anyway, I just knew I joined it. I never once really played an actual piece and I wasn't even aware that an exam was so important, I would go to the exam, be clueless of what I'm playing, and go out - Waste of my parent's money..And during performances, my seniors would all be playing it for real but I'll be just there, standing, roughly playing roughly trying to act real cool like I'm some kind of legend violinist. I did the same thing when it was violin practice too - Aigoo~ seriously don't understand my mind then~...

So yeah, I quit piano when having my piano lesson and I quit violin by skipping it all the way till I got scolded by my Teacher-in-charge and got kicked out *Whoops*

Another reason why I wish to learn the instruments is when I grow up, I want to take composing as one of my leisure hobbies(For my childhood friends who have heard my SERIOUSLY EMBARRASSING self composition when I was young, DONT LAUGH! But I know, you will still laugh cause your thinking about 'Special Technology' T___T). And I wish to compose with the piano *smiles*

But now, I obviously see the two instruments in another point of view and really wish to learn both! But I would like to learn it for the fun, no gradings but still aware of the theories etc. I'm also hoping to find a teacher that comes to my house since I already have a piano here that seldom get played on and because I'm lazy to go out. Same goes for violin but now it's only $$$$$$$<-I'm starting to really dislike yet like this symbol you know?  and also if I can cope with my studies and extra activities. Even if I can't learn them now, I hope I will~ learn them again.

Some pictures to make up for this wordy wordy post!

Grand piano, I like the white one the best actually..Lazy to go find a nice picture of the White grand piano

Violin

Electric violin, I think it works the same way as an electric guitar? Hm?

Credits: Google Images

That's all, it's going to be 4AM and today is the last day of 2010! Byebye 2010 and Hello 2011! I will make a prayer to God just before 2010 ends, but I also MUST MUST MUST count down 10-0! Mm! Byebye~