Chapter 5 - A healthier lifestyle

The first thing I see every morning...I love my room!

Holidays have been...Well, normal - I'm getting into the holiday mood although I still have to go back to school for dance but still, ~~~~~~

Anyway, I think I'm improving? Improving in things like health (Sleeping order, eating order, exercising order), dance (Well, I still can't be as flexible and graceful as others but if I compare myself to when I was in 2009, Uber improvement!) and maybe just my mental state? I don't know but what calms me down is when I speak to God *smile*

Seeing myself improve compared to the past I feel so successful in my own way - It ain't anything big neither anything small but it justs makes me really happy, like I can do so much better in the future and I shouldnt limit myself to things I always think I can never do - of course, have a mind and heart to think properly too and not just do anything and everything U-KNOW~!

Hmm, been into 2NE1 videos these days and seeing them being so fun, playing yet living their dream, seeing how they are in their daily lives as a singer at their dorm, company or at performances, it makes me want to join their company even more..But ever since I found out about the sufferings of a celebrity, not just Korean celebrities, it makes me restrict myself from wanting to be one. Because I do not wish to suffer like that but live a free life - which is something celebrities don't have: Privacy, freedom

So I'm always going on and off on and off, but YG seems like a really promising company, like a real family,  where there's a father and mother (CEO&his wife), elder brothers, younger sisters, close friends - the whole package. From what I see, what they show on camera as a family is definitely not scripted, not acting but just how they are whether the camera is off/on..That's why it's making me wonder if I should really give it a try next time..

However, not only my teacher but many others, including myself, have warned me of slavery contracts..And I'm very aware of it too...But YG seems different..I'm in a mixed thought you know - wanting to do what I do, found the company I really like to be in yet wanting to live a free, fun life that doesn't have to be a celebrity..I'm not even sure I can be one anyway but it doesn't hurt to just try right? As in, try and audition but when it comes to signing a contract..That's the dilemma.....Hmm~...

I shall just wait for the future to come and see what happens!

Ok, it's late and I gotta go and sleep! I'm thirsty though................