Chapter 4 - Do not be hurt

A beautiful sunset I saw when I was about to leave the house.....

I guess (Alright, I know) I'm sensitive...Especially when it comes to the comments that direct at me.....I was born this way and also experienced a depressing situation to make me even more sensitive..I get hurt easily by others but it doesn't lead me to detest them - Even if they shattered me to pieces, disallowing me to get up. I guess I'm just this sort of person. I dream a lot, be kind to others despite whether their good or bad to me, show a bad side of me that only some can accept, yet the only person who truly understands me, even sides of me that I don't understand myself, is God. I really love him more than anything else because he helped me through thick and thin. And he accepted me despite of what I do, he would never judge me because of my actions or thoughts because to him I'm beautiful, more beautiful than the ocean or the sunset...I cannot help it but to be like this now (Sorry to all of those who read this and think your reading some kind of weird emotional girl's blog yeah~)

So, even if I'm like this or that, all I want to do now is, live life happily with God, live life happily for my loved ones and most of all, myself. The world is imperfect..nothing here is good..even money..cause whatever happens here, is related to money too..But I never once thought of money as my life, I only see it as something I need so I can live, but it is not something I cherish..That's why, financial problems, economy, tight money etc. It's hard for everyone...But somehow one side of me just doesn't really care if I have all the money in the world or not..because my only motto in life is to live life for God, with God, to live happily - and that happiness is not through money..I think money can give me fun times by going to expensive places etc. Make me enjoy the luxurious life..But in the end, still, all I want is happiness........

Whether you know it or not, I really think of a lot of things in my mind, whether I'm being quiet or when I'm really loud - whenever, I daydream, I dream, I reflect, I think - and, I think too much..Which makes me a sensitive person...But it's something that I cannot change - because that IS me...I can only improve myself...

To end it off, I love myself for who I am, I don't have to be anyone, I don't have to change cause of what people say, but I will improve myself for the better..I shouldn't get hurt, even if I do, I have someone to rely on - God <3

It's midnight and I shall go off to sleep after surfing the net for a while...Goodnight~

P.S. I notice my posts are really hard to understand everytime I'm typing but I guess I'm the only one who will understand it? Hm?O_O

GOODNIGHT~!