Chapter 12 - The piano & The violin

It just came up to mind again that I want to learn piano & violin. Reason is because I like these two instruments a lot. I used to learn both of them when I was young, I think for piano from K2-Pri 3(?) and for violin I think Pri 1-Pri 3..Yea, I stopped both of them on the same year. It was because then, I wasn't that much interested in instruments because it always made me sleep, I could sleep halfway playing them! Feel really guilty for not appreciating those two instruments earlier. 

I had piano lessons at home because my other siblings had them too, we didn't have any exams so yeah, it was just for playing and I stopped before even reaching Grade 1 because I hated all the theory and stuff and just wanted to play all the nice songs I liked - naive right?

For violin, I joined it as my CCA in my Primary school because then, I didn't know what a CCA was anyway, I just knew I joined it. I never once really played an actual piece and I wasn't even aware that an exam was so important, I would go to the exam, be clueless of what I'm playing, and go out - Waste of my parent's money..And during performances, my seniors would all be playing it for real but I'll be just there, standing, roughly playing roughly trying to act real cool like I'm some kind of legend violinist. I did the same thing when it was violin practice too - Aigoo~ seriously don't understand my mind then~...

So yeah, I quit piano when having my piano lesson and I quit violin by skipping it all the way till I got scolded by my Teacher-in-charge and got kicked out *Whoops*

Another reason why I wish to learn the instruments is when I grow up, I want to take composing as one of my leisure hobbies(For my childhood friends who have heard my SERIOUSLY EMBARRASSING self composition when I was young, DONT LAUGH! But I know, you will still laugh cause your thinking about 'Special Technology' T___T). And I wish to compose with the piano *smiles*

But now, I obviously see the two instruments in another point of view and really wish to learn both! But I would like to learn it for the fun, no gradings but still aware of the theories etc. I'm also hoping to find a teacher that comes to my house since I already have a piano here that seldom get played on and because I'm lazy to go out. Same goes for violin but now it's only $$$$$$$<-I'm starting to really dislike yet like this symbol you know?  and also if I can cope with my studies and extra activities. Even if I can't learn them now, I hope I will~ learn them again.

Some pictures to make up for this wordy wordy post!

Grand piano, I like the white one the best actually..Lazy to go find a nice picture of the White grand piano

Violin

Electric violin, I think it works the same way as an electric guitar? Hm?

Credits: Google Images

That's all, it's going to be 4AM and today is the last day of 2010! Byebye 2010 and Hello 2011! I will make a prayer to God just before 2010 ends, but I also MUST MUST MUST count down 10-0! Mm! Byebye~

Chapter 11 - Healthy,Stressing & Dreamy Life

Alright, I shall just say a few things and leave the rest of this post to pictures of my dream house that I can never have unless I make THE money T___T

So 2010 is ending and 2011 is coming. I know it will be a year that makes me laugh, cry(Good&Bad) and maybe just plain boring all at the same time but every year it's that way - But I still learn a lot and mature bit by bit. Well, since I have to lose weight(Yes, I do! I need! I must!), I think...6-7kg? I'm not a person that needs to be fat-less but neither do I want to be too fatty you know, so yea, I shall try~ to lose that much..When I lose that much, it's the ideal weight for my height alright~ So I ain't trying to be underweight or anything. But I wonder if i can even lose 1-2kg T_T I'm ranting about my weight but so what~ It's a blog for me to rant on anyway~

Okay, said enough now it's time for me to show you the pictures I've found online of this Apartment/Penthouse in London that I came across. It's really nice in my point of view and it's a kind of house that I would really like to live in next time(Yes, I know - the MONEY! I still can dream~ right?). But of course, it doesn't have to look exactly like how they show it in the pictures, just that kind of atmosphere and style.

Imagine going off in the morning like that

It's a private apartment so yeah, you gotta *deet*

The cozy living room, looks nice in the day&night

Nice dining area too

Spacious kitchen suitable for cooking&baking delicious food~^p^

With bright morning light like that, I think it's easy to feel freshly awake right?

Luxurious bathroom to relax in

Big dressing room

Looking out at the scenery to relax your eyes - Comfortable~

Or just sitting there to do..Whatever that you feel like doing there

And a really beautiful garden to hold events or just have a picnic in your own home. (I didn't google for this image it was part of the apartment I saw online)


Credits: http://kenwoodplace.co.uk/gallery.asp

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Chapter 10 - Time to go back

How I wish I can really not wear my specs already...I think I look better without 'em..And FYI, I'm not that skinny^ And nope, I didn't photoshop myself - Because I don't know how to but I guess I'm photogenic(?)...I look better on the camera then in real life - NOT complimenting myself alrightoh~

Anyway, I think I'm slowly getting back to the schooling-mood. I just received my schools books for next year yesterday and somehow, receiving those school books 'magically' made me *zoink* back to the schooling-mood. Just from seeing the books, I know next year ain't going to be easy with my mind going haywire and confused and frustrated AND lazy at the same time. But it's alright, I won't give up and just fail all the way, I want a bright future too alright! So, Aja aja fighting!

I'm going to go out soon to buy my necessities for school with my friend later on and, wow, I actually planned to go out when I'm bankrupt. So yea, I begged my younger sister(Yes, she has money), my auntie and last but not least my eldest oppa. Took $30 from him - Is that enough to buy all my necessities? I hope so. Because 1 pen costs $2 T_T Oh yeah, and my parents aren't home so yeah.

Hmm..I kinda forgot what to type now..My sister came into my room and asked me to say Hi to the guests downstairs and Aigoo, now I really forgot what I wanted to say..........HMMMMMMM....

*Thinking real hard*

Okay, maybe that really is all...

Chapter 9 - What's the feeling now?

Took this from 2NE1's me2day(Korean version of Twitter) and I really like the window-scenery behind them. Wanna have a bedroom with that kind of atmosphere when you wake up in the morning^_^~

That's Jaejoong's house..And nope, I didn't really go there....He posted it up in twitter! (Hehe, his laptop at the bottom right shows his on twitt-erhh~) Anyway, just think his house looks really cozy with that Christmas tree

Truthfully, I have nothing to blog about, to add on with my laziness, maybe that's the reason why I always throw my blog in the corner hmm~

So what happened recently was:
-JYP Audition on the 8th morning to afternoon
-Cruise on the 8th at night to 11th morning
-Nothing but being lazy and turning into a fat old uncle on the couch

JYP Audition was alright, right that morning I went to check out their page in case there were any news to find out people saying there was NO dance again...But only singing/Dance+sing...But in the end, I still went as I trusted what the staff had e-mailed me about having dance back again - and of course there was. It was a new experience, something I have never gone or felt that I would go before. But one thing I felt that I couldve done better was not to wear my school PE attire there. Aigoo neh, everyone wore nicely, some even with make-up or short short dresses or something they would wear to impress someone etc. And I go there, like a school girl that didn't tie up her hair. In school shoes & PE attire. *sigh* Wore my PE there because I thought after registering, I could rush off to Modern Dance but I didn't know I had to stay there and audition on the spot that day aigoo~..But I still do not regret going there because at least I tried, even if I wasn't satisfied with how I performed infront of the judges, I still tried so that's what I'm proud of! *sniff sniff* Haha, not being emotional here~

I still stalk their page everyday to see if there's any news and there were 25 people shortlisted, but it doesn't mean their officially in JYP Ent., maybe just a higher chance I guess?O_O But the official day we ALL know whether we get into JYP or not is next year, 10 Jan. Whether I get in or not, I won't be upset because in the first place, I just joined to get experience and to just see what I can do. Even if I were to get selected, I wouldn't want it - for several reasons. And recently hearing the judges comments on articles, they looked at appearance(Attire and face),good attitude,confidence and talent. I already know I'm out because of my attire and maybe even my attitude. Not that I had a bad attitude and scolded people there. Just that on the application form, they gave it out in a rush and by the time you reach the front of the line, you have to submit the application form. I had no table to write on because I had to help my friend cue and standing and writing a lot of stuff ain't fun so yea, my handwriting was horrendous and ugly. There was one box to fill in about our 'Motivation(Something like why we came to the audition)' and I just wrote for experience. If the judges sees my application form plus my attire plus my being-too-nervous-that-I-danced-with-too-much-power, I'm out. And I'm not looking down on myself, but I really don't think an entertainment company would pick someone like me in that state, especially with my potato nose(Squeezing it so it can be a bit better at least, it's actually helping. And to my elder sister that seems to be the ONLY one 'caring' about my flat nose, want to exchange noses? Since your the only one who keeps talking about it. At least I'm someone who will never do plastic surgery or someone who needs to closely stick to all the facial masks. Even if I will never have a super sharp nose without plastic surgery, at least I'm proud of the way I am. So go mind on your facials and see those pimples improve and be happy about it. You don
t see me telling you to go and change the skin on your face don't you?). Oh gosh, I went off topic wait let me like think back~~~~

OK! So overall, I'm happy about the audition and willing to try out more FOR FUN, but when it comes to a time when I really want to get into that paticular company, I will try very hard NON-STOP to get into that company and for now, that company is YG. Their having one in Singapore next year and I'm not sure if I can get in or not but even if I don't, I'll just keep trying. Even if it takes me 5 years to get in, I still would. But if there also comes a time when I really made my mind up on what to do, then......let life lead it's own way neh....Only God can do that*Puts love signs*

And OK! Next! Cruise~ Hmmm...It's same old thing, just that for the first time I brought a friend over to cruise and still, it's boring. The only thing I really enjoyed in cruise was the swimming pool - It's the deepest one I've been to. The lowest depth is 1.95m, then 2.05m and the deepest would be 2.25m I think! And a 3-4m(?) slide! During that time it was at night and really cool(Abit cold) and they were blasting very~ recent and popular hip-hop,pop & R&B music. Wah~ totally made me hyper~ But what made me most happy then was when they played my fav hip-hop song, Gangsta Luv>O<;; I don't really like the rap parts but the chorus only but still, I don't know why I just like that song alright. They played songs that were used in my dance CCA too when we did warm-ups last time which made me happy too! And because the pool was really cold then, I wanted to stay in the jacuzzi(Yea, they had it too^_^~) longer...But still, cruise is boring...Just the pool...I wanna try RoyalCarribean(?) instead..Looks like Superstar Virgo and RoyalCarribean will be rivals now?O_O

And ok, after that day, I became lazy. Just stayed at home, eat a lot of fattening food, sleep long hours, use the computer for long hours, sleep at late hours, exercise a bit~ then eat a lot again and then here I am now. School is starting in a few more weeks and I guess I won't be so into the studying mood YET but of course, I'll still study hard to at least get me a grade that I won't be disappointed in. I don't care about being the top or what. So as long I'm stable then it's okay~ Maybe before school resumes again I'll just do like a flip-through? Or stuff like that....OK! Done talking so much I wanna go see what's on facebook and twitter! Byebye

Chapter 8 - Performing

In Phuket, Thailand last year...

Wow, I hadn't updated my blog for quite a while since I lost my internet connection *sniff sniff* (Only feel 'right' to use my own computer to blog unless I'm in a desperate mode you know~)

OK(!) So mainly I'm going to talk about what I've been thinking recently - Being a KPOP idol
I know, some of you will think it's impossible, some of you think it's lame and impossible, some of you don't even give a damn but being a singer was what I've dreamt of since very young and as I grew older, I came to know more of how the Entertainment Industry is really like - Glamorous on the outside, dirty on the inside. I still know very little about what really happens inside~~~ the industry as I have never experienced it before but at least I have a clearer mindset about it compared to last time.

Coming very soon in a few days, there's going to be a JYP Audition (Which has Wonder Girls, 2PM, 2AM, Miss A etc. inside) held in Singapore. Originally, there was a category for Dance. So I registered for that category but after a few days, they announced that there were to be no more Dance as JYPE wasn't looking for one currently. I felt a bit disappointed as I was really hoping to try out to show people my dancing and see if my standard of dancing is up to their expectations, so even if I were to not get in, I would not feel any sadness in me as I'm doing it just for experience. And if I were~ to get in, I still wouldn't sign a contract with them cause 1)Parents 2)Life here 3)I'm not ready 4)I don't think it's the path for me yet 5)Complicated

So after they said they didn't need any dancers, I just kinda heck cared about the audition already..I like to sing too but I wasn't that confident in my singing yet to actually go and showcase it so yea, didn't feel like changing my category to singing. Also, the dates of the JYP Audition clashes with my vacation in cruise so Aigoo~ I had a dilemma for days and days:

-Should I just try out singing? Even if my singing is just average?
-I can't cancel my trip to cruise
-I have to register again but it clashes with my Modern Dance
-I don't wanna be out of my Modern Dance's dance routine so I don't wanna skip it too
-Should I just heck care about this audition?
-I think they'll come back for another audition again
-Urgh, I'm missing my chance
-I don't care if I get in or not but I need to overcome my fear
-Aish I have~ to give up one for the other..I can't have both!
-*Prayer to God*
-Etc.

So yeah, till yesterday, I was still having all these frustrations..Just to perform for a minute, just to see if I can even be a participant there anyway, risking my Modern Dance's performace etc. - And I'm making myself stressed over this *Gongs my head*

But just yesterday, I read a news that YG Ent. (Artists like SE7EN, BIG BANG, 2NE1, Gummy etc.) were going to have an audition in Singapore next year! That's when I totally pushed aside JYP's Audition as I prefer YG to JYPE/SM truthfully (JYP/SM bias you can continue to support your idols there don't worry! I love SMTOWN, I like the JYP Family too! But for company-wise, I still think YG is the best *smile*)

I hope YG will have a category for Dance, but most of all, I just hope I will really be able to participate without disrupting anything that I need to do during that period of time. But again, whether I get in or not, I don't really mind, I just want experience as I always feel like I'm letting opportunities go. To me, I prefer Auditions compared to Contests - Because in auditions, no one ranks you, they just selected but in contests, they rank you with 1st, 2nd and 3rd and if I were to join contests, I don't really have any confidence because I still find myself very average - Singing & Dancing-wise. Going for contests are good to get experience too but....Eehehhee, I'll try to go for small contests first..Not those really big ones where all the super talented people BOOMZ out their talent and the small lil' me will be watching like this -> O__________________________________________O...................

Mmhm(!)

So my dilemma now is all gone and I just want to concentrate in improving myself in Character/Personality,Study,Talent-wise <-Just this 3 which kinda makes up most students' life right keke...

But I still have one more dilemma in me - To live the ordinary fun life / To live the KPOP Idol Star life
I want to have a fun, free and enjoyable life but once you become a celebrity, it's hard to actually have this 'free' word..That's why..Aigoo, I'll just let life go on and see what comes neh..

TIME TO EAT MY MASH POTATO! I said I was going to heat it up 1/2 an hour ago! TSK! Okay~ Byebye~! FISHY ARE YOU READING THIS? Thank you very much for your Effiel Tower Keychain(!) *Bow bow*



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Edited: Alright, now they said there's dance again so I have 75% chance of registering for it again and 15% chance of not making it in terms of reaching there not getting selected