Chapter 7 - What about my prom?

Let me walk this path with a wet tissue paper box in my left hand and foot prints that point the other way on my right.

Recently the Secondary 4s have had their prom night..I stalked all of their pictures in Facebook and going for prom looks so fun(!) It's like seeing your class/school mates dress up formally in dresses that you have never seen before..Not only did I stalk my school's prom pictures but other school's one too and yah~ All the girls had such pretty dresses!

Thus, this is making me wonder about my prom night 2 years later (If the school decides to hold one of course)..OK, I'm am going to talk about my dreamland of preparing for prom so you may think your reading some kind of wanting-to-be-a-princess blog..

First of all, it's of course choosing what dress to wear, then hairstyle, shoes, accessories, make-up:

Dress: I really do not know but since I saw most of the girls wearing short dresses, I shall purposely be the the 10% who wore long dresses (And look nice of course) - But most of all, I just want people to think, "Wow, I didn't know she could be that pretty!" And really mean it hehe..I shall just go to different dress shops and try on everything till I find the right one - Just like how those bride-to-be choose their wedding dress hehehe...

Hairstyle: Truthfully, I do not tend to curl my hair cause I think it makes me look Aunty-ish but I do hope to style my hair nicely to fit my overall look

Shoes: I find it kinda.... .....to those girls that wear sneakers with a pretty dress so for the first time ever in my life, I'm gonna wear pretty heels and walk around my house in it everyday till I get used to it!

Accessories: Hmm..Not too much not too little but just the right amount - Everything must go together too

Make-up: Eh~ I'm not really those kind that likes to put any product (Meaning I just rather be freshed faced all the time) but since I'm going for a prom, it's only natural to put at least SOME make-up...Maybe just lip-gloss and the eye area(Eyeliner, mascara and whatever other stuff that can be put at the eye area)..That would be enough yup..I do not wish to put foundation cause my face is white enough already! But still, foundation is always required so yeah~...And truthfully, I hate the feeling of lipstick/lip-gloss on my lips cause it makes me paranoid that when I eat/drink something, it goes off and I don't like to eat my own lipstick whether it's edible or not........

Yupyup(!) That's just the preparations for prom! Now it's time to talk about my dreamland when it's prom day HEHEHEHE!

So maybe in the morning, all of my friends and I go to a 5-star luxurious spa to have massages and facial done. And once all of that is over, we will all be in just a towel robe and the workers at the spa would have already prepared our dresses, make-up at another room..And then, we would all have our own seats and people start doing our hair and make-up. Last but not least, we put on our dresses and get into a car that fits all of us and once we step out of the car and into the venue where the prom is held, people would just go "OMG..Look at them O____O (In a super uber good way)"

And after that, I would BLUSH BLUSH BLUSH out of happiness and embarrassment. And when we go into the venue, our other friends and schoolmates will go, "Wow, where did you get that dress? You look so pretty today~" And I will BLUSH BLUSH BLUSH again and say, "Yea, I know *Flips hair sarcastically* Your pretty today too! Hehehe"

And Prom King & Queen....Haha, I don't really tend to be that cause I'm totally not a pageant-kind but if all my friends are participating (Which I doubt so...), then I will participate FOR FUN too! But I doubt I will win anyway~ Leave that Prom Queen thing to some other girl that really hopes to win ^_^~

And after prom, we would go out in our dresses and just walk around the streets and stay in a 5-star hotel and just walk around the hotel's lobby and just have FUN!

And the next day we would be 'dead' from being too crazy the day before

-THE END-

Yup, that's how I wish it could be but(!) I can just dream on cause all these needs MONEHHHHHHHHHHHH$$$$$


And eventhough it sounds really pampered-like, I wish I can just be really pampered just for that one day *smiles*

Haha, ok the end the end~!

Chapter 6 - Let the stores hate us!

My birthday cake this year! Thank you Aunty Liz for the treat at the restaurant-with-a-pool~^_^

Just as what my title says...I have posted about giving bored workers some enjoyment..Now it's time to post about how we gave them frustration!

There was once I went with my friends to a restaurant (Won't mention the name)..I ordered normal dishes but some of my friends wanted to order Kid's Meal! When we're 14! The worker asked us for our proof that we were below 12 but....we were in our school uniforms so it was totally obvious we weren't <12..However, the worker went to ask the boss if it was alright to give us Kid's Meal and the boss said it was alright - Just this once..

So yea, we had our meal but once we finished....Hmhmhm~~~ We started getting playful and poured all our leftovers into our drinks, then pouring the drink onto the Kid's meal plate (An aeroplane/Bus)! We filled it to it's brim and left to pay our bill with some notes and many coins!

Our thoughts then were to quickly escape from being glared at by the waitress that had to clean up after us as by the time she held up that Kid's meal plate that was filled with weird liquids to its brim, she wouldve toppled everything and let the liquid make a "waterfall" to the floor - which may get a scolding by her boss...

^That was why we were so anxious to leave the restaurant ASAP!

Ever since then, we thought we would get black-listed by that restaurant hehe...

Then, another time, we went to a noodle shop...If you go to a noodle shop, your'e most likely expected to eat noodles right? BUT NO! My friend and I ordered Crepes(Desserts) whereas my other friend just ordered dumplings...And that was our whole meal there...

The people working there kept asking us if we wanted anything else and we were like, "No O_O.." Such a waste to go there and eat and we thought again, "We're so going to be black-listed by this restaurant too.." Again, the bill was initially paid with a few notes and many coins! But it wasn't enough so one of my friend just gave a $10 note in exchange for all those coins...

Last but not least, this was recent..I went to Guardian (Yes, I mentioned the name but not the district it is in~) hoping to find tissue paper(Had a bad cold) but I ended up looking for deodorant  - Puberty caught up with me and thus, I needed to buy it, Bought Dove! I just don't really like Rexona or anything that has a perfume smell, I like more of a creamy smell that smells like you just had a fresh bath~^_^

Alright, enough ranting on what kind of deodorant I like best but yea, while I was looking for deodorant, I came across a section where they sold products that could help you get rid of blackheads(I have loads of them on my nose that will shoot out in a few days after I remove them T_T)..I was just looking through those products and considering if I should buy the one where you stick the product on your nose and just peel it off kind..

But suddenly, a sales lady working there came up to me and asked me if I wanted to use this product that cost $15 instead - obviously trying to sell it to me..But thing was I really didn't want the product as 1)Just want a simple peeler would do 2)Expensive 3)It was a bottle and I don't feel like putting on so many products

But I couldn't give a 'No' for an answer so I played along and pretending to be interested in buying it..However, I kept hinting my friend to help me and say 'No' but instead, she thought I really wanted to buy it and went away saying, "I think I should go see something.." GREAT HELP!

In the end, when she went off, I went to find my deodorant and secretly put that blackheads product somewhere else where the sales lady didn't notice and quickly went to the cashier to pay for the deodorant...

Sadly, she was keeping an eye on me to see if I bought the product she gave me..When she saw I didn't buy it, she came up to me and asked me why I didn't buy it and I replied that I had not enough money..Well, it was half true half a lie..I had the money but I wouldnt want to spend $15 on that product anyway~...So she asked me where did I put it then and I said I didn't know..My friend placed it somewhere so she went to ask my friend for it...

In the end, when we left the store, we could feel that that sales lady must have hated me a lot for not buying the product but sorry~ I just didn't know how to say 'No, I don't wanna buy this freaking product your trying to sell me so please go away..I want to find my deodorant.." No right~?T_T

So this is how we make stores hate us...Ain't something to be proud of but it is a kinda funny yet awkward experience~

Chapter 5 - A healthier lifestyle

The first thing I see every morning...I love my room!

Holidays have been...Well, normal - I'm getting into the holiday mood although I still have to go back to school for dance but still, ~~~~~~

Anyway, I think I'm improving? Improving in things like health (Sleeping order, eating order, exercising order), dance (Well, I still can't be as flexible and graceful as others but if I compare myself to when I was in 2009, Uber improvement!) and maybe just my mental state? I don't know but what calms me down is when I speak to God *smile*

Seeing myself improve compared to the past I feel so successful in my own way - It ain't anything big neither anything small but it justs makes me really happy, like I can do so much better in the future and I shouldnt limit myself to things I always think I can never do - of course, have a mind and heart to think properly too and not just do anything and everything U-KNOW~!

Hmm, been into 2NE1 videos these days and seeing them being so fun, playing yet living their dream, seeing how they are in their daily lives as a singer at their dorm, company or at performances, it makes me want to join their company even more..But ever since I found out about the sufferings of a celebrity, not just Korean celebrities, it makes me restrict myself from wanting to be one. Because I do not wish to suffer like that but live a free life - which is something celebrities don't have: Privacy, freedom

So I'm always going on and off on and off, but YG seems like a really promising company, like a real family,  where there's a father and mother (CEO&his wife), elder brothers, younger sisters, close friends - the whole package. From what I see, what they show on camera as a family is definitely not scripted, not acting but just how they are whether the camera is off/on..That's why it's making me wonder if I should really give it a try next time..

However, not only my teacher but many others, including myself, have warned me of slavery contracts..And I'm very aware of it too...But YG seems different..I'm in a mixed thought you know - wanting to do what I do, found the company I really like to be in yet wanting to live a free, fun life that doesn't have to be a celebrity..I'm not even sure I can be one anyway but it doesn't hurt to just try right? As in, try and audition but when it comes to signing a contract..That's the dilemma.....Hmm~...

I shall just wait for the future to come and see what happens!

Ok, it's late and I gotta go and sleep! I'm thirsty though................

Chapter 4 - Do not be hurt

A beautiful sunset I saw when I was about to leave the house.....

I guess (Alright, I know) I'm sensitive...Especially when it comes to the comments that direct at me.....I was born this way and also experienced a depressing situation to make me even more sensitive..I get hurt easily by others but it doesn't lead me to detest them - Even if they shattered me to pieces, disallowing me to get up. I guess I'm just this sort of person. I dream a lot, be kind to others despite whether their good or bad to me, show a bad side of me that only some can accept, yet the only person who truly understands me, even sides of me that I don't understand myself, is God. I really love him more than anything else because he helped me through thick and thin. And he accepted me despite of what I do, he would never judge me because of my actions or thoughts because to him I'm beautiful, more beautiful than the ocean or the sunset...I cannot help it but to be like this now (Sorry to all of those who read this and think your reading some kind of weird emotional girl's blog yeah~)

So, even if I'm like this or that, all I want to do now is, live life happily with God, live life happily for my loved ones and most of all, myself. The world is imperfect..nothing here is good..even money..cause whatever happens here, is related to money too..But I never once thought of money as my life, I only see it as something I need so I can live, but it is not something I cherish..That's why, financial problems, economy, tight money etc. It's hard for everyone...But somehow one side of me just doesn't really care if I have all the money in the world or not..because my only motto in life is to live life for God, with God, to live happily - and that happiness is not through money..I think money can give me fun times by going to expensive places etc. Make me enjoy the luxurious life..But in the end, still, all I want is happiness........

Whether you know it or not, I really think of a lot of things in my mind, whether I'm being quiet or when I'm really loud - whenever, I daydream, I dream, I reflect, I think - and, I think too much..Which makes me a sensitive person...But it's something that I cannot change - because that IS me...I can only improve myself...

To end it off, I love myself for who I am, I don't have to be anyone, I don't have to change cause of what people say, but I will improve myself for the better..I shouldn't get hurt, even if I do, I have someone to rely on - God <3

It's midnight and I shall go off to sleep after surfing the net for a while...Goodnight~

P.S. I notice my posts are really hard to understand everytime I'm typing but I guess I'm the only one who will understand it? Hm?O_O

GOODNIGHT~!

Chapter 3 - International Dance

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHl3YX4mwU8&feature=player_embedded
Saw this real nice contemporary dance of Beyonce's Halo - Beautiful~

Am dedicating this post to my CCA - International Dance a.k.a Modern Dance. Hmm, when it comes to my CCA, many mix thoughts come to my mind you know? Sometimes, I really wish to just let all my thoughts go and let everyone know but when I want to say something, something in me stops me from even thinking about what to say - leaving me with a blank mind.  Urgh, even now, I'm already all mixed up.


The reason why I can't really say much about my CCA is because:
1) Will receive bad talk, gossips
2) Will sound bossy
3) Will sound emotional
4) May be good & bad


So the only people who I have really talked about Modern dance to was actually Christina cause she's in the same CCA as me and we spend most of the time together. However, most of the thoughts are still kept in my mind and even I myself cannot understand it..Am I too dedicated to Modern Dance such that I feel like I'm the only one who truly loves it or is it that I'm just trying to tell that to myself to make me feel better? I really don't know.


But I really wish that by the time I leave my Secondary School life and carry on, I want to see my juniors, my seniors, my teachers of Modern Dance all really happy that Modern Dance has come far to be a good CCA for unity, personality, passion and just a CCA that people would enjoy seeing and not one that people gossip badly about. That's why I really want to do as much as I can for it but being not so good at dancing and even just voicing out, I really wonder if I actually can do it because now the state of our Modern Dance is really.......bad...I mean, Modern Dance has been defined as our seniors' dance group RMD, not all of us. And our attendance is really - I want to come, I feel like coming, I don't wanna go, I'm lazy to go, Let's go today, Today have to go there, Why is it that we have to go, I really can't go, I'll make an excuse etc. <- That's how our attendance is like and there are only few regular dancers.


To add on, I'm not saying we all suck at dancing and might as well not dance at all..I feel like we can all do it..Even have the potential to get Gold with Honors for next year's SYF but because of how we are now, we really need to improve ourselves a lot. Last year we got Silver for SYF..I think more of the credit had to go to our seniors as the steps we juniors did were like back-ups and props compared to the difficult dancers our seniors did. But next year, we are the seniors, we will be the mains, the one that need to teach our juniors and also do our best ourselves. But our attendance, our discipline and passion to want to work MUCH harder for our CCA and for ourselves aren't there....And I can't just go to my seniors telling them to dance better, because it's rude and I myself ain't good enough to do the steps better too. But I just wish we can all just work real hard for our pride, our passion for our CCA and not take it as a I-feel-like-it-or-not thing.....


Next year wer'e going to do contemporary for SYF - And I actually really happy about that cause it's either Folk/Traditional OR Contemporary so yeah..We found the teacher really #@^@&*@%*@^!)@ at first but sooner or later, we still have to go through everything...We say we love dance..But if we cannot even accept the dance the teacher teachers us, then do we really love dance as a whole or just one type of dance? Dance can be anything, so why do we complain and say "this type isn't the kind we do" then aren't we being too narrow-minded instead of wanting to learn more? I really disliked the teacher at first but now I find it fun yet weird because i'm not so used to it yet...And we should all be thankful for even having a teacher ready to teach us something..I wanted hip-hop for SYF but knowing that we can only do Folk/Traditional OR Contemp, I now know why getting Gold for doing Hip Hop is low..So we all just have to come together, really bond and become one where wer'e not awkward with each other, not separated into our own groups, not gossip about what mistakes we do, what we say, what we had done in the past but just be one.....


And you see, during this whole time, I don't even know what I've been typing.....It's so complicated yet I don't even know if the other dancers even want to bother about it or not...I didn't say they heck care about it or they deeply cared about it but....Ok, I'm getting confused myself so I shall just end my super mixed thoughts.


For now, all I know is that I'll try my best to improve, starting from me, then slowly with others..I'll try you know....But one thing I know is I won't give up on Modern Dance..I really don't know what happened to Modern Dance before I entered Sec Sch but what I know now is that we have to push ourselves up again.


This is such a complicating post so let's just really end it here. Byebye~

Chapter 2 - Giving the bored Entertainment

I remembered how I went outside the Faber Castell shop in ION with Christina, giving the two bored shopkeepers entertainment by acting shocked at the $2,683(?) Artist Kit filled with different levels of colour pencils of every shade, sponges etc. Just like those big make-up kits you see in branded make-up shops!

I really wanted to see the Faber Castell shop in ION so after a long search and waiting of 3 months, I found it! The Artist Kit was really nice until we saw the price..However, to make up for my disappointment of the price..I asked Christina to act like she was gonna faint from the overwhelming price so yeah, because of this, the two shopkeepers looked at us in their not-filled-with-customers store weirdly but at least we gave them some enjoyment right? *Smiles!*

Also, while we were walking to Cineleisure in Orchard, we saw pigeons wandering around the floor so we decided to chase one of it till it flew away! Because of this, we made this random worker that was working there laugh at the weird us but HEY! It was fun alright~

After that day, I really thought we were weird crazy people acting nuts in the middle of Orchard Road (To add on, In our school PE attire..) BUT! This ain't counted as a disgrace to the school, wer'e PROMOTING our school to the public to show them that our school is filled with cheerful crazy and weird SMARTIES(Not Einstein smarty but still smart) that are Grateful(We say Thank You!), Respectful(We smile at the elders) and Compassionate(We made strangers on the streets have a better day!) students alright~!(GRC is our school value hm!)

Chapter 1 - Newly Born

What I was really looking at was the curtains..

HEY~! Well, this is not my first time creating a blog as I blog, stop, blog, stop, blog, stop for a very long and here I am again ready to blog. I really hope I can keep this blog as long as I can, writing about whatever happenings and just writing what I feel like writing.


Oh yeah, the reason for my blog URL being fresh-naturalways is because it just popped out of my blank-mind-that-wanted-a-URL-that-had-something-to-do-with-my-personality - Notice that Naturalways can be read as: Natural ways / Natur Always (Unique right? I know~) Well, it wasn't that unique as someone had already used that I guess so I had no choice but to add the word 'fresh' infront mmhmm!


Alright, so this will be the opening of my Newly Born Blog! Let's all hope I'll keep for LONG!


It's 1.26 AM now and I have Modern Dance Practice tomorrow so Good Night All~!